R.I.P CR-V!

Yesterday evening was the first (and probably last) time I saw my car since my accident. I knew the bottom of my car was probably pretty bad, and I knew my windshield and driver side mirror were busted... but I had no idea how bad the front end was.

The picture doesn't do it justice, I was shocked when I walked up to it. There were still tree branches and snow packed into my car. I didn't realize at the time of my accident how deep one tree actually went into the front end. I have strong reason to believe me and that tree would have had a face to face introduction if the snow wasn't so deep.

I took all my belongings out, and took my ski racks, bike rack, and trailer hitch off. I sat in the drivers seat one last time, and then walked away with as little emotion as I possibly could. Physically I am fine, which is probably the most shocking thing to me. Emotionally I am up and down. I drove past the accident site on the way to my car. Contrary to what I thought, I think seeing the accident site and my car again helped. I was able to make some closure, and accept what happened.

I have always been very resilient to change or tragedy, but this is a challenge. The entire thing was over in a matter of seconds, and I think when that much happens in such a short amount of time, it takes that much longer for your brain to process it.

Of course I have been back skiing since my accident. In fact, I've done a lot of skiing. I've gotten away from the park, and have decided to discover the rest of my mountain. There is so much I almost missed forever. I have ridden almost every single run at Breckenridge ski resort except peak 10 and the back bowls. I don't know that I am ready for all of the terrain on peak 10, which is the expert peak of Breck. Today was the first "pow" day I've gotten to ride all season. I rode almost all day in white out conditions with my friends Maggie and Jordi, but it was amazing.

I am hoping to hear from my insurance company within the next few days. It's not easy living without a car. But I rather go a while not living easy than not living at all!